Felt rather sick these past few days. A slight fever going on. And euphoric at times.

There was a moment of emotional instability. I hesitated traveling after my mom told me she would peek at places where my cat would usually lay down only to find Teh not being there.

And so i asked, 'would it be better for me to go back to Malaysia this winter?'

She replied, 'I'm fine. I like you traveling more than doing nothing at home.'

Because she knows me well enough. I'll sleep my butt off at home most of the time. I remember her asking me last summer..

'Bilanya nak pi Jakarta. Beli la Air Asia.' (When are you going to Jakarta. Just buy Air Asia.)

I told her i wanted to visit a friend at Jakarta but ended up spending my summer holidays doing, well, nothing much actually.

I need my mom more than she needs me. A holiday in Malaysia in winter would be much more meaningful for me than her. But i do hope both they are coping with the loss of Teh.

3 comments:

Ilyas Zubir said...

kalau jadi balik sila roger..
kalo aku masih menganggur bleh kita jalan2 pusing lostaq haha

QifA said...

haha.tak balik kot matyop.hang kat sarawak sampai bila dowh.kasik alamat sikit.

Ilyas Zubir said...

haha esok last keja..lusa aku dah gerak balik la afiq..takyah bagi alamat kot..ang nak antaq kad raya pn takdan dah haha

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